I’m an elder. I turned 75 in August. For some reason accepting my elder status as a wisdom keeper has been more significant lately. I wrote about embracing the Universal Grandmother archetype from information given by the Sky Grandmothers in my book Life is a Song of Love. Elders are pioneers and wayshowers during this chaotic time when it feels we have significantly lost our way. Grandmothers and grandfathers are needed because as old souls we’ve done this before on other planets and because we remember our multidimensional selves. It takes an immense amount of trust to continue to have faith that everything being dismantled in separation consciousness is necessary in order to re-create this world with the compassion and unconditional love of the Holy Mother Father Sofia God.
While my vibration level continues to expand and rise, I find myself still struggling with grief and sometimes questioning the divine messages I receive daily. I know I’m to anchor the new balancing of the divine feminine and masculine energy. This is occurring within the divine caldron of infinite potentialities being created from the destruction of the old patriarchal separation consciousness paradigm. As prophesied for thousands of years, we are creating the new earth. In my heart I know this to be true. Yet, anxiety continues to surface—ancient fears that still need recognition and compassion to heal.
Not only am I an elder in this lifetime, I’m an ancient old soul. I’m receiving snippets of memory from the ancient matrilineal times before the power over paradigm gained ascendency. Messages about the Pleiadian inspired teachings of the Lumerian seven sisters seeding our divine heritage from eons ago are returning to the consciousness of old souls. (I’ll write more about Lumeria in another essay.) Sometimes I wonder if I was more spiritually powerful in previous lives than what I am now. It requires an immense amount of trust in perfect divine timing to believe I’m now birthing a newer more powerful version of divine self in this lifetime. We’ve been conditioned to believe we have to effort in order to achieve anything. The idea that all we need do is surrender to the Beloved God’s multidimensional embrace can feel hard and confusing. When we feel confused it is always the earthly ego who is afraid of losing control.
What is trust? What is surrender? I feel so many of us are asking these questions—how do you do trust and surrender? And the answer is always we do nothing and we don’t need to know how it will occur. We trust that the divine is always working. We trust that no efforting allows all to unfold. We trust, we trust, we trust and then it happens. It can feel like a miracle. We can continue to trust and feel grateful for all the miracles. Or, we can continue to doubt and let our brain’s anxious thoughts stop us. It is that simple and that complicated all at once. For we are creating the new human who knows without a doubt that the energy of miracles is actually the energy we feel all the time as we step into our future human selves. The miracles we receive now give us many experiences of what it is like to be divinely human. When we remember who we were, there will be no more miracles because we’ll embody our true spiritual self.
There are no words to describe the act of trust and surrender. This is a struggle between the conditioned ego that needs an explanation and the heart that knows. Most of us want a map or a description of how to surrender. Letting go takes an immense amount of practice and patience. And this is where we often get confused. Isn’t spiritual practice doing something? Yes and no. Yes, we are doing something. No, because spiritual practice is learning how to stay in our hearts with compassion. We write, dance, sing and meditate ourselves to remember the peace, joy, harmony, and connection with our inner truth. We remember who we were. We rest and allow.
To paraphrase a quote from A Course in Miracles, infinite patience brings immediate results. When I consistently return to patience and trust in doing nothing, the divine has the space to fill me up with miracles. Slowly miracles become an everyday occurrence birthing who I already am into being fully human and fully divine.
