Casting Away Illusions; Cutting the Ties that Bind

I’ve had the title for this newsletter for quite awhile. It was going to be my summer newsletter, but somehow it just never happened. I seem to be awakening at warp speed at the same time as walking through molasses. Left brained stuff such as planning, organizing, working on the computer is increasingly becoming more difficult as I open more and more to receive the Divine Feminine Christ Consciousness/God’s love. What is it I’m holding on to, my ability to function in separation? What does that mean? Will people see a crazy woman if I totally let go? And yes, it does feel as if I’m equating the left-brain with the ego. And I also know that the left-brain when freed from my judgments becomes my ally. Something inside says if I totally let go and surrender, all will be enfolded in grace and it will be easy again. Life will flow in endless circles of love embracing all that is, in perfect union with God.

So much has happened, is happening, how can I possibly decide what to write about? My higher Holy Self answers, write what is fully in your heart in this moment? So that’s what I’m doing, writing what is landing in my heart. And what is landing in my heart requires that I be transparent and vulnerable. Therefore part of me wants to edit what I’m saying so I’m less exposed.

I’m coming to embrace and trust that completely letting go of all the expectations (cutting the ties that bind) of my family and friends returns us to Holy relationships of unconditional love. I’m allowing and embracing abundance in my life in a totally unexpected yet empowering way. I’m actually experiencing that the coming to voice of the Divine Feminine is freeing the Divine Masculine and returning us to Unconditional Love. This means opening my heart fully to Sophia, the creatrix of all life, the black womb of No-thing from which all emanates. Embracing the Divine Feminine Christ Consciousness within me has opened wells of grief that can now finally be healed.

I’ve written before about my journey with snakes from fear to appreciation of their sinuous and graceful beauty. I’ve encountered them on my hikes, including rattlesnakes. It is rare enough that I know they are spiritual messages of times of rebirth and transformation.  Excerpts from the web site, What is My Spiritual Animal, help in understanding the power of their message and the relevance to this newsletter topic.

“When Snake starts appearing as a Spirit Animal and Guide it is time to cast away illusions, unhealthy beliefs and unreasonable expectations be they emotional, physical or Spiritual. The only way to wholeness is by walking in truth and living each moment to its fullness. Give up the “would haves”, “could haves” and “should haves” and focus on NOW….The Snake opens Chakras, particularly the Base Chakra so you can understand and embrace sacred sensuality in body and Spirit. This path to energetic opening is referred to as a “Kundalini Awakening”. One of the most potent lessons from Snake Spirit is that of the cycle of life, death and rebirth. Note this may not be literal (situations, relationships etc. have these elements)…. Always remember, though, Snake sheds their entire skin, they re-emerge whole. Snake Spirit can help you glide gracefully through even the most harrowing experiences. Snakes are terrifying to most folks….Snakes are primordial creatures and, so, stir ancient memories housed in our DNA. Snake energy causes us to consider life and death matters. This can rock your world. When Snake slithers in as your Spirit Animal, things are about to get really “real”. Don’t be afraid. Snake medicine can help you.”

Recently we’ve seen snakes around our home, which is unusual. The day my oldest friend since I was four, Jeanette, and her husband Dwight arrived for a visit, there was a garter snake just off our north portal that appeared sick because it was not moving. It was the first time Jeanette had visited our new home in New Mexico and I had all sorts of expectations of what this visit should be.

Through out the afternoon we checked on the snake and it did not move much. Finally Dwight was able to determine that the snake was entangled in hard to see plastic netting that was left over from a planting and this was why she could not move. So Dwight and I used some small scissors and started cutting away the plastic netting. Because the snake was very tightly bound, it took some time. At one point Dwight asked if the snake would bite and I said no because the snake knew we were trying to free her. Once we had her free I felt such joy and peace watching the snake slide away.

I had this awareness that there was a profound message for me in this act of cutting the ties that bound the snake, and some part of me knew it was about letting go of my expectations of this visit with my dearest and oldest friend. And I managed to mostly succeed at this release after some anger and hurt feelings. There was peace within me by the time she left and a gratefulness that she’d made the journey to visit.

It wasn’t till later that I realized this was also a message to snip the ties that bind to all my close relationships, especially my children and husband, Rick. It’s only by letting go of these conditional expectations developed over lifetimes that we free ourselves to return to Holy relationships of unconditional love. I feel as if I’ve completed a lot of inner work to accomplish this and because I’ve been tightly bound, it takes time. So this cutting of the ties that bind continues and each expectation that dissolves into the light brings me ever closer to total and complete trust in my own and their Divine Sovereignty.

And last week, a young garter snake appeared in our home. How it entered, I have no idea, for we’ve faithfully followed the advice in New Mexico of never leaving your doors open. The snake was easily caught and freed to the outside. I could write an entire blog post about what this symbolizes for me. Just let me briefly say that it completely changed my perception of and therefore my relationship with every room in our home to one of Holiness and gratitude. And with it comes a deeper acceptance of the Higher Holy Self within me as my true home. It was signaling what’s to come.

The lesson of snipping away the ties that bind also manifested with my relationship to money. It’s always been based on fear, even though I’ve never wanted, even during the time when I did not know how I’d pay for groceries for my family. So as with most families, we struggled sometimes and struggled to put our children through college, yet we always managed and we had families that helped. Yet, I continued to maintain the fear of not having enough.

I inherited money that allowed us to move from Massachusetts to New Mexico and build a beautiful home in a spectacular place and provides us with some income to live on. Rick then inherited some money that allowed us to complete the home comfortably, support our children in what they wanted to do, give it way to organizations I love, and allowed me to go on many retreats including Israel and recently a cruise to Alaska. I’ve been blessed and most grateful, yet we became accustomed to having this cushion of money and we were spending it rapidly.

After my heart-opening retreat to Alaska on a cruise ship, I realized that I was worrying the money was disappearing. After some looking at our finances, I realized that our expenses were way more than our income and that if we kept on the current course we’d be in trouble. And of course I went into a total complete panic. Yet after a few days of fear, Rick and I were able to spend two days of calm, lovingly going through our finances of what are essential expenses such as the mortgage, house and car insurance, utilities, groceries, etc and analyzing what remained. When completed, we were able to come up with a manageable, yet strict budget.

I was surprise how empowered I felt. The budgeting process became not about lack, but the beginning of learning the art of simple living, of what it means to have ease of enough. This simple act allowed me to look with new eyes at what is necessary and what is not, and at my love of clothes and beautiful art without judgment, removing those ties to expectations about what I felt I needed.

The most empowering letting go of expectation was freeing myself from believing that I, the personal self, was responsible for my two children’s financial safety. The conversations I had with them about our budget were filled with love and a trust that they are safe within God’s hands. When the Higher Holy Self directs, the timing is always perfect.

Casting away illusions creates heart-centered living where true abundance and safety emerges, living a life of ease of enough. The act of creating and now following a budget was the catalyst I needed to release the attachment to the belief that I had to be the financial savior for my children. It helps in casting away the illusion that things can define me. This experience also provided a vehicle of simplification that Rick could understand and agree to without having to call upon the language of spiritual or philosophical change that he is not ready to embrace. And of course, it’s been a huge lesson in trusting the inner guidance of my Higher Holy Self.

Surrounding all of these lessons in casting away illusions is the deepening awareness of my unique purpose in union with God to be a voice for embodying divine feminine consciousness and therefore healing within to free the divine masculine from the negative constraints of patriarchy. This led to reading two books channeled by Claire Heartsong titled: Anna, the Grandmother of Jesus and Anna, the Voice of the Magdalenes. These books blew me out of my self- limiting box into multidimensional thinking. With Sajit Greene, I was guided to start an online dialogue group through Zoom titled, Coming to Wholehearted Voice, the Reunion of the Divine Feminine and Masculine.

After returning from Alaska and receiving the message of the power of divinity from a bald eagle sitting on the log in the middle of my labyrinth, I was led to read The Sophia Code channeled by Kaia-Ra. I committed to doing the initiations from eight Divine Feminine Ascended Masters: Isis, Hathor, Green Tara, Mother Mary, Mary Magdalene. Quan Yin, White Buffalo Woman, and what is called the Sophia Dragon Tribe. It feels I’ve always known these women and I’m coming home. This is catapulting me to a place that I have no words, as yet, healing grief of being mostly a victim through many lifetimes that I did not know was so deeply within me. And, it’s beginning to heal the deep feeling of being a failure for lifetimes of inability to save the children. So I’ll end with a quote from the Sophia Code, which hopefully will express a little of what I’m experiencing.

“Yes, I am that one Source Light pointed to by the innumerable names for God within all spiritual revelation. I am every name of God, and I am also that which is beyond a name for God: for any title can only point to a quality of my ineffable mysteries. You can call me “The Source,” you can call me “The Sophia,” or you can call me “She Who Has No Name,” for I am that which is within all names, including Holy Father.

            As the One Divine Mother Creatrix of All Life, I Am That I Am, no matter what you choose to call me…and your soul is an immaculate conception of all that I am.”

I see how perfectly my Higher Holy Self has always orchestrated my lessons to deeper awareness of my Christed Self. And with this awareness, the miracles happen more and more often till I become fully human and fully divine and they are no longer necessary.

Amen and Blessed Be